Stranger

You're too disconnected to empathise.

To buried in ai generated lies.

Academies and maximising. 

Misogyny in a different font.

You're bespittled lips and faux anger.

Somehow thinking that makes you stronger.

Paying out of pocket 

for some piece of advice. 

You don't care that the world is burning, 

as long as you are still earning,

your weight in recognition. 

Real money is too expensive. 

They scream at the skies

And say they're in danger. 

You shrug your shoulders 

And say they're just strangers.

Hmm-mmm hmmm-mmmm 

You let them be strangers.

The world is in pain,

the world is danger. 

You tell me you don't 

recognise yourself in strangers.

Hmmmmm yeah

I'll let you be a stranger. 

Night owl

Night owl 

When the sunset 

hits the trees

my energy rises,

as does my breath,

almost in tandem.

My ears unpop 

after 12o clock,

much like a reverse pumpkin 

out of a fairytale.

The silence is decompressing.

My body relaxes 

and I feel hale.

I crave those moments I have to myself.

That cold night air is intoxicating.

As is the neighbourhood sleeping.

I am alone.

Let sleep take its time to catch me.

I need an hour of reprieve.

The only sound, the sound of you

and I breathing rhythmically.

I can stay, forever, 

just like this

and never get bored.

And never feel unloved. Ever.

Kip/Atilla

Kip/Atilla

Jaren geleden, 

voor de muskus 

zijn afscheiding over twitter liet gaan,

kwam een tweetje van mij 

in een Engels artikel,

en had het ipv hen/hun 

chicken/hun staan.

Misschien is dat

geen gedicht waard 

maar mijn brein leidt een ander leven. 

Want wat is meer non binair 

dan mij opeens de titel 

van een willekeurig object

of een dier te geven?

We're here!

We're here! We're queer! Get used to it.

I didn't know a wheelchair 

means no sexuality,

or gender,

or pride.

I thought it was me

that gets to decide,

not society

or my ride.

Hybrid piece with artwork

Closet

Oh how they miss the good ole days!

The ways things used to be.

Life treated us so much better

and everyone was happy,

or so they claim.

Closets too used to be made 

of stronger material.

Oh the craftsmanship on those 

were quite exquisite!

Bring back 

that solid piece of furniture 

that held everything in,

including your next door neighbour 

and also possibly his wife.

Solid panels,

thick slab of wood,

hinges that hardly open,

double lock,

doors that are harder to move

than blocks of cement.

Hide your secrets in there,

hide your life,

hide yourself,

hide your future.

Forget to love.

Forget to breathe.

Forget to exist.

Forget to just be

because once you're in 

you can't come out.

“Bring back those good ole times!”

and this is what they mean.

The fervour of their mating call

reaches all the dark corners 

where those ‘good ole day’ people 

had their wintersleep.

Emily Dickinson

Emily Dickinson 

Sometimes I dream 

That I'm the next Emily Dickinson.

What an easy dream to have

when every day feels like dying.

I take my pen up 

and with delicate care,

one pinky in the air like 

I'm drinking fancy tea,

start writing

the most beautiful thing 

I have ever seen.

The sungod will make his track 

across the sky.

My body will be still 

because my mind is not.

And if I forget to drink, 

that's fine.

If I forget to eat,

my words will nourish.

I am racing against daylight,

keen to win.

My ears hear

how my pen scratches the paper

and my skin feels the warmth of 

lines of light moving across my body.

I feel too, the indents my body are making 

on the chair I've grown into.

Oh how real it feels!

When I die,

people will suddenly find

the boxes of poetry I created.

A treasure trove 

ready for travelling the world.

People will be sad that

they didn't know me

but I won't be forgotten.

Another type of living death 

than the one I'm currently living.

Knowing I will be found

keeps me company in this tomb.

Mountain

Mountain 

I'm on a mountain. Faraway from everything. A remote and singular destination in the back of people's mind. Not in the world, but around. Not of it, but related to.

From a perch I see everything and nothing all at once. The view far reaching and yet too distant to see anything. There's not a single way in which I can breach the gap. I've stayed up here too long anyway and I've frozen to death.

The night offers solitude over my cold body. The moonlight still doesn't fail to wake me yet warmth it will not offer. That's ok. I die faster during the day. Isn't that surprising?

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