You feel like betrayal to me, somehow.
I hold you in my hands and things have changed.
I don’t know what is happening inside of you.
And the truth of it all has yet to be explained.
All that I can do is wait,
And it never seems like enough to me.
I want my mind to release this weight.
The unknown sensation of my reality.
Give my answers with clarity.
I need to know what future will hold.
But I am bound to waiting.
Ticking seconds to the truth is told.
I cannot always do what I want to.
Some days exist just to breathe.
I just wished my mind let me be.
I cannot always do what I want to.
I'm always ok and always ready to break.
Unable to bend more while people just take.
I cannot always do what I want to.
So I just lie here staring at the ceiling.
Willing some rest into my being.
Wishing society would leave me whole.
Wanting society to leave me alone.
Too much hay on the fork.
Too many old cows in the water.
Too much Dutch in my mouth,
And I think I don’t get it.
You don’t say what you mean,
You make it sound fancy.
When you ask me how I am,
You demand a nonanswer.
And I know what it is always
What you want me to say,
But damn I don’t like lying.
Why do you make it that way?
You think you are nonconfusing,
You are mellow and relaxed.
But you have more rules
Than you have friends to tag.
Samen zijn
En samenkomen.
Samen blijven
En samen doorstomen.
Samen verandering
En samen sterker.
Samen leren
En samen ontdekken.
Samen luisteren
En samen leven.
#KomBij1
Voor dit maatschappelijk streven.
The call for freedom
Comes from the ego’s
Who strangle our freedom
As they go
Threading on the dead
To get
What they think
They deserve to get.
Spreading their lies
Saying we live one.
Spreading disease
Claiming there is none.
Don’t support
Conspiracy terrorists.
They will come for you next.
Silent body
Rocking about,
Has the pain
Screaming loud
Inside.
Silent body
Made of thoughts
About what is
And what is not
Expected.
Silent body
Not silent to me.
But the volume
Is not seen
By you.
My mind is empty
Because my mind is too full.
My heart has been brimming
To the core.
My nerves are fraying
And my nerves are dull.
My soft warm body
Has been feeling sore.
There is too much of me
And not enough space.
There is too much going on
That I hate.
My time to exist
Keeps meeting delays.
The bodies pile up,
Their safety too late.
I hate this world
Cause I love it too much.
I needed your safety
And I was to be crushed.
My hope in humanity
Tainted by your touch.
My love for my body
Has now come with a cost.
