Silence

 

Oh honey, I see you.

Oh honey, I see you so.

I won’t go, I won’t go, I won’t go.

You knew you were happy once, but it faded

Back to the background, where is seems to stay

With all the bits of your sanity that seems to remain.

You hoped the pain in your head remained a memory.

A shitty piece of the bad stuff in your history.

But there you are, crying and screaming again.

Please brain, please be silent

You beg, visions before your closed eyes.

No matter how much you try to smile,

Your body remains a broken thing

That just lies there.

There you just lie.

You’re lying in the crumbs of yesterday’s meal.

Your tears have dried but still you can’t see

Past the water that has formed in your eyes.

Waking up to the sound of a singular beat

Drumming to last nights disastrous lack of sleep

And asking of life the silence you desperately need.

But your brain, it won’t go silent

And you see horrors every time you close your eyes.

No matter the distraction you try to conjure,

Your body is the only silent thing.

And there you lie,

There, you just lie.

They all can see the mask that is breaking

And all the years of happy memories just flaking

Away into the wind cause you aren’t allowed them.

You fill your ears with music to try to understand

What is that that dark dog seems to demand

Of you but all it offers is a different noise.

Cause your brain doesn’t know silence.

You hallucinate onto the lids of your eyes.

My body the only unmovable thing.

The story is mine.

Here, I just lie.

Oh honey, I see you.

Oh honey, I see you so.

But sometimes I wish I would leave myself alone.