The better one

Sometimes I feared with the power of a hungry animal
Even the simplest things of life.
Sometimes I dreaded the coming of the new day.
Even now I can still recall
The days I lived back then.
Sometimes I still fear, sometimes I still fear.

The old memories burning their own thoughts into my mind.
It's not simply something that I can forget.
I think I once told you that.

It hid in the folds of my skin
And I lost myself.
It screamed inside my head
And I lost myself.

In the air surrounding me
I felt the pressure.
It always felt like more
Than I can endure.

Time moved away from my perception
With a hasty pace.
Day and night kept turning
As I watched through a haze.

And you said:
Healing takes a while, my dear,
One step at the time.
Hold my hand
For comfort and guidance.
Follow the sound of my voice.
Believe me.
Believe in yourself.

Not to give up or surrender,
A fight is his own right.
And I did not know how not to cry.
Every tear blocking my sight.

But I never hesitated
To ask for help.
Even when I did not hesitate
To hurt myself.

And you said:
Don't give up,
There's so much worth fighting for.
Don't give in,
Love, you'll make it to the end.
You will see the sun rise again.
Believe me.
Believe in yourself.

Would you please smile for me?
Would you please smile for me?

Sometimes you pray for the silence
When chaos has set to destroy you.
But don't feel the need to worry
You will find yourself beneath the mess.
Within rises the obedience
To the will that you call your own.
Ignoring the sight of negativity, for you
You have the strength to live on.

You are not alone.

I saw myself reflected
Inside your words.
For a beautiful moment
It erased all the hurt.

And I remembered me.
And I believed.
I remembered me.
The better one
With strength that can overcome
Everything.
Yes I feel alive.

Who I am and what I need,
All the things I forgot to feel
Are rising up inside of me
One step at the time.

Today is not the day that I die,
I am too much in love with life.
I can never give up on this,
I am too much in love with life.

Life will never be easy
But when I remember the sea,
How it feels to dream
And breath, I know that I am happy.

And I remembered me.
And I believed.
I remembered me.
The better one
With strength that can overcome
Everything.
Yes I feel alive.

I
Am
Alive.