No words at all

You asked me in the middle of the night

To leave myself from standing besides

One of the things I once thought the ugliest sights

Wondering now what it will bring me.

And I have come to understand that no one really sees me,

No one but you really,

And I think it should be okay, somehow, maybe

But it does not feel okay.

And in the middle of the night,

In the dark corners of that one single light

I lie awake and I cried

And I dare not wake you.

I know you do not want me to ask that question,

Make you feel like you´re staring in the barrel of a gun.

You have always wanted me to feel the sun,

And believe me love, I do.

But every now and then, I can hardly deny

I keep asking myself if it would be better if I died?

Just creep out on always living on the edge of life,

And give everyone their peace back.

Would I be capeable to close the curtains and take my bow

To this miraculous play that has in awe every now

And then, and I remember that I once made a vow

To myself to never give up.

And I won´t. I won´t. I can not stop losing hope and die

When there is a chance of experiencing things that made the fight,

Every single fight, worth their while.

And I will not give up.

So believe me, when I ask you whether or not I should leave,

Please remember who I am and believe,

That I just now, need a shoulder to cry on, some relieve

And no word at all. No words at all.