It has been a while

Let´s draw a line

Let´s shut the door

Let´s draw the needle

over her skin

And hurt some more

Let´s make it okay

The way it all plays out

And give her the blame

Not even a sentiment

Or some doubt

Let´s make it look

Like it does not hurt her at all.

Let´s give her a kick

And then let here take the fall.

I have tried in so many ways now

And every way is still not enough.

I have tried to meet you on middle ground

But still I was not close enough.

You wanted me to see it all your way

While mine kept on being ignored.

And I accepted my fault,

But still I wait for you to see yours.

I am just a punching bag, I guess.

Your good days are now my punishment.

And yes I know that it have hurt you to.

But that does not make this right,

Whatever what was meant.

Let´s take a dive

Into my soul

And see me swim

For many hours

To take back control

Over my life

And the things I feel

Over all those moments

That made you say

That I am not real.

That everything I feel or say is not worth a consideration.

That it is always me that has to walk the extra mile.

But the truth is, that I am tired of always walking.

If you want answers, come to me for a while.

Take the effort and come to me for a while.

Why won´t you ever come to me for a while?

Am I for you event worth your while?

Hello you, it has been a while….