Bodytrap

24 hours and I am counting the seconds,

Almost 24 hours I am spending here.

Trapped in this bed and trapped in this body,

Trapped in a life that doesn´t want me here.

I was the coating but I lost my sugar,

I was the hopeful and I lost my will to…

And even though I am staring

To everything that still makes me smile,

I feel bored, I feel like a fool.

God I miss dancing and I miss singing and I miss walking

On the beat of my own rhytm, I miss just standing up and

walking over and just getting there like a normal human being.

24 hours and I am trapped in my own body

24 hours and I am stuck inside my brain.

Plants are twisting around my legs, my arm and

I can´t stop thinking and I am going insane.

I was the scone but the cream was forgotten,

I was the words but now I hold my tongue

Cause I feel wholly unmanagable,

I feel like a failure of everything

And I know you told me that I was wrong.

I miss the music that once graced my ears and I miss

watching show the entire day, wasting it away, and I

miss writing whenever I felt the need too as I always did.

God I miss it. I miss being me, although I did not know

Who me was, at least I felt I could find out. Now I am

just trapped in a body, trapped and I can´t get out.

Yes I do miss it, all the things you never knew I had a

reason for missing, But I keep fighting and yes I will 

Always keep on wishing.