Everything forgotten

There is no real disease, you say

Just take a knife and cut it all away

And there is nothing wrong with me, you say

Just man up, just man up, just man up

It’s all in your heart, I hear you say

Or in your head or your thoughts

And it will never get any better this way

You don’t really want to be better, you say

And I am walking and I am walking

And I am here trying to be someone you could respect

Because love feels so much as

Too much to ask for, and you do all the talking

That is the distance you want to me to reach

But I am nowhere near your finish line

It keeps on moving away as you want to teach

me, that nothing comes you don’t need to fight for

But it should not be a fight to be a daughter,

A love or a friend, and even if I would never be a mother,

And I might never be one

I love like I love a child, I love like a child

I know I am disappointment, to you

Or to society, that I don’t know

I have everything to proof it

I might have no friends, I don’t know and

I am here all alone for ever it feels like

I doubt everything about who I am

I doubt if the world even wants me

But there is something you don’t know

I know the truth and it burns you

That I was right, that I am right and I did little wrong

Even if you blame for the much in this all

It was not me that twisted the words to

To something they were not

And it was not me that spread them all around

I was just here being a daughter forgotten

I was an everything forgotten

I only tried to be your friend, my dear

I only learned what you looked like from the back

When you thought I should run to catch you

But I can’t run, you see?

You still don’t believe I know what is wrong

Or the contents of my own body

And whatever this will be

I am not a liar and you don’t believe me

I am done trying, I do think I am

I don’t want to set me up for failure

If you want me you know how to find me

And I’ll be there and you won’t expect me to be

Until then I don’t think you will understand

Or you will try to even accept me

As I am, As my needs, me as a woman,

Me as daughter and me as a friend