A silent leaving

Put on your best fake smile
And pretend everything is okay
This life is the greatest show
You will play in for the rest of your days

The memory perfect pictures 
The lies that tell you are insane
The differences between you and them
Are the voices that you will slowly gain

A finger pressed against your lips
Hushing every word you want to speak
It was always the same with him
And you have never felt so weak 

And you never dared to speak up, for the fear of being left
Broking into promises that were never kept

You tried screaming the truth
But that did not help
So you withdrew deep inside yourself
Putting yourself down
Putting yourself down on the shelf
(When you still believed in Maybe next time)

Now they say you don't talk
Maybe you've forgotten how
So lonely and cold where you are
And nobody comes around

But you will be fine in a minute
At least that's what you tell them
And that's what you tell yourself
Holding onto everything you can

So speak your mind, my dearest
Because I can see you fading
They always told you to be silent
Their words you shouldn't be holding

I wish you were more certain about the person you can become
I wish you weren't feeling so numb

And I would kill to break your chains
If you would let me in
Open your hands and find your voice
Because you have
Because you'll always have a choice
(And one day you will see it all)

But still you will always be leaving
To withdraw inside yourself
I hope one day it will not be in silence
Your words matter
Your dreams matter without any end
(Chasing them will make you happy)

I know what they told you
But this is not the past
You are not born to hurt everyone
There's a truth inside you
A truth that will last
And yes, I know what they told you
Inside the secret chambers of your head
But you belong to the living
People that see what you are
And listen to all the words you said

One day you will tell yourself
That you love who you are
And maybe that day will not  be today
A world smiling at you
The silent leaving of the words of yesterday
The silent leaving of the words of yesterday