Your best lie

Your deceptive mind is working in over time
For years we have been stuck in a pattern of deceit
Our time was limited and when I came to close
You withdrew from behind the screen, casually ignoring me

And I was blind to the truth of your intentions
I could not hear the things you wanted to say
So eager to forget how I tried to open up
I lived my life and send all those memories away

But every now and then I ask myself
What if I told the things I could not tell

We've been stuck
In a holding pattern
And I'm the one that put us there
One day I'll explain to myself
All the reasons why I was scared

You see me as a secret that you have to hide
A shameful, dirty confession only made to me
I've become perfectly fine with the position you put me in
Because you and I might not be meant to be

But every now and then I ask myself
What if I told the things I could not tell

We've been stuck
In a holding pattern
And I'm the one that put us there
One day I'll explain to myself
All the reasons why I was scared

Take me out of the box
Play with me for a little while
Never tell me when you're done
It breaks my heart
But with such passion
It almost seems like fun
To be right in front of your gun

But every now and then I ask myself
What if I told the things I could not tell

We've been stuck
In a holding pattern
And babe, it isn't fair
One day I'll explain to myself
One day I'll know why you weren't there