Mind like mine

Never liked a mind like mine before
It's like catterpillars on the eyes
Seeing yourself through a mirror made flesh
Seeing yourself without any of the lies

Never liked a mind like mine since
It keeps me bleeding into the inside
What I want to see I never once see
And my scars are less than benign

Never will I like a mind like mine
For it keeps me trapped inside it's hive
And it feels like I am barely awake
I wonder sometimes if I'm still alive

I will try to find myself a new normal
But normal always seems to change
And I am running out of days

I know I am not perfect
I saw the years passing me by
Without me taking the time to get it right
Led into the wrong direction
I replaced my days with nights

This mind is my own little Ophelia
But I will not drown in low water
As the inside crumble into mush
My skin is growing harder and harder

This mind is like a bucket of shame
That is haunted by a whirl of guilt
But every day I decide not to jump
While standing on the edge of the world

I am less perfect than perfect might be
And I might be the one that loses her reality

I know I am not a saint
I spend my years in some haze
But I am not the one who is lazy
Have you known how hard it is
To fight when people think you're crazy

So I am dancing in the rain
And I am laughing and people think me insane
Than I am crying and they hide away from me
Than I am chattering and people resent me for feeling free
It's never alright in their eyes
If it's not what they believe, they call it lies
That's the danger with a mind like mine
They do not like what they can not define
That's the danger with a mind like mine
When I grow they want me to recline

I know I will never be a martyr
And I never asked to be
But in the end I will keep fighting
To make sure I am me
The hands that feeds and not the one biting